nothing much happen these few days..
except for the lost of my wallet..
but i managed to find it back the next day..
went to Esley house to play monopoly on Saturday and Sunday..
we all realli played till dunwan go home...
den on saturday..
went home..
had this major pain on my left arm...
was in such great pain that i onli slept for ard 3 hours...
and the pain is so great that i could not even lift it up initially...
and while sleepin..
i had a hard time trying to find a nice positioning of my hand so as to lighten the pain...
and when i found it..
i fall aslp immediately..
and all of a sudden i will wake up due to the pain..
coz i cant even try to touch my that hand or move it...
the pain is realli unbearable..
haiz..
anyway..
now the pain subsided already.
hope that it will not come back..
most probably goin see a sinseh on wednesday
yeap
just told my mum my results..
expected her reaction..
but that is not what i wanted..
was totally upset with her words...
jus nw..
engine niang called..
was realli grateful to u....
thanks for being so concern about me..
i realli hope that i am fine..
yesh, i might still be sad..
but i am fine...
i know that there is no way for me to dwell on it anymore..
coz things are not goin the way i wanted it to be..
i think i made a mistake..
the mistake is made by me..
no one can undo that for me..
all i can do is blame myself for not being able to see things properly...
i must bear all responsibility for my own misery i have now...
i might kind of hate him..
but he is not responsible for all that have happen too..
none of them are...
i am...
coz i was still unable to be matured enough and be brave enough to act as per normal...
but just that i am still not used to things now..
coz of that the person i used to go to when in troubles, is him..
coz of that the person i used to go to when i am sad, is him..
i now realised...
how dependent i was on him when we were friends...
i was realli realli relying on him so much that i threw myself into a endless pit..
but now i have to learn to once again stand up alone and depend on myself...
and i will..
i will be fine..
coz i am not so easily defeated...
but i am not the same anymore....
nothing much to update le..
bye...
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